And believe me it is the first time I am unwinding my feelings- venting off the steam I have accumulated over a long time, erupting out the magma like a volcano(considered dead till now).
Yes, I have been thru love. The feelings I kept in disguise, the moments I cherised the most, the thoughts I believed the best- I am no more able to control them. And it is going to explode today with all the buzz.The story dates back to my childhood:
I have been with her, felt her at every corner and enjoyed her aura all thru my childhood but could never understand it. It came to me only on the most unfateful day of my life we were parting away. Yes, I loved her. Loved her more than anything out there and anybody around there - and that includes me.
I did first see her in my school with a girl known to me. It was nothing like love at first sight. We became just freinds and I had no idea the moment was going to be a legend for me. Our freinship went along with time and consolidated with every single passing day. Yes I was getting dependent on her-I liked to be around her and tried all the plays to hang around. We used to be together and gradually she bacame a good freind of my sister.I welcomed it with all my heart open, getting closer to her.
Yes I was developing a loathsome feeling against every guys around her- without any exception. No they can't stand anywhere with me. I had all the confidence in me. I should have known it that time itself- it was not a mere friendship. Alas!
I never asked her the same.
Came the D-day.As if fate had stored all the hard lucks for me, we were parted on our way. The golden days of childhood was over, and I was put in boy's school to take care of my future. I cud never understand, why I didn't revolt against the pre-fixed pattern of life I was subjected to mould in. Why we always sacrifice our golden present in lust of still glittering future. Why man never gets tired of running after mirage.I was going to miss her for a long,may b forever.
But destiny never misses to play a game with man. And I was no exception. One fine day our family (includes me) shifted flat and I turned to find her my new neighbor. This time I was determined to unfold my love before her. I won't remain just a good neighbor, and thats all. No force can derail me from the goal. Not even his healthy "Pop & Bro", even combined together. I deserved some more space in her life.
But destiny was not behind in the race.It came as a blow to me,hard to parry off. I had lost the battleground. There was someone else in her life - someone she feels more important to me.
I had found her all along in my dreams. I knew I can make her happy. She But I cud see her in more joys. The question was - does she njoy my abscence.
I decided not to come in her ride to joy. I am satisfied njoying her proximity as a nice neighbor..... knowing well I cant get any near. Still her presence makes an euphoric wave deep inside my heart...... I know it'll go on.
I am in job now far from my hometown - all I am left with is my golden memories. It is not all over . Everyday I feel some steam boiling inside and on everytimes I do take pledge - someday I will give her all I have for her- my love.
Let me introduce her to u. She is "Pussy"- the cat in my neighborhood.
My dear Pussy if u can hear me, all I have to say is - "I love u"
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