Chatting with a nice girl. A bliss for boyz. And I am not an exception. But I had to go through many hooks and crooks to discover the simple fact.
I have never felt the abscence of a girl in my life till the date. And to be honest, never felt the abscence of anyone around. In sorrow and joy, I have always found myself standing for me and the first one to come to rescue.( Though I dont disparage the contribution of Papa, Mumma, Big Bro and my "lovely" sis here.). My dependency on myself increased in folds. And thats how I started loving me. Me, me and me... is it matrix reloaded in my body.
Although knowing all these fact to the roots, an indistinct desire to have someone (read girl) in my life remained there. I don’t know whether this is the psychological attribute to the man from the nature or just a ramification of the social structure in which we all are woven. And I went on a ravenous drive to search for a girl. I was not yet sure; was it for the sake of expanding my aura, to have more satisfaction for not missing any dimensions to life or to just have a feel of euphoria.
The marathon started with a girl id on messenger. I started my hunt. Days and nights passed on and hence did the messages. Yup, from both sides. Finally I got many of girls listed in my address book. (But for sure I told all of them of myself being a boy.) I was happy enough to add many of names in the list. But an added name not necessarily means friendship. Chat can increase ur acquaintances, can make friends but not always. Friendship is more eternal… and elusive as well.
I didn’t know it till yesterday… when I found one on chatroom. We did chat for hours. And words were like flowing. I didn’t think twice before writing anything. And she accepted them all. But, do mind Shahrukh - “Kuch kuch nahi hua”.
Yes, we went on and on. She would be a normal girl, but not for me. I sometimes found her bubbly, other times cola, some time manly and next moment bovine. Yes she was a nice combination.
We went to become closer to each other and so much that could feel other’s respiration on net itself. I couldn’t make out what it was all, but it went on going. Don’t confuse, for sure it was nothing more than a friendship. And finally came the dusk of our chat when she had to tell me the obvious three letters: B Y E.
But she gave me something which has kept me in quagmire since. Yes, it’s nothing else but her contact number. I could never believe it. How can a girl believe on a boy… and that like me? Is it that I am a beautiful mind? I am not sure. Yes, I am very much confused… .
Trying on the cell number it says “not in service”. I know she is a girl, but still do hope him to be a boy… at least that can bring this quagmire to an end. I may(/mayn't) lose a girl on the list but will definitely find a nice friend in my life. I hope not to lose anything. Whatever she be… its friendship calling.
I don’t care who u r, where u r frm, wat u did, as long as u love me.
